Waiting For Your Ministry
The Quest For Fulfillment
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© Copyright, Grantley Morris, 1985-1996.
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In the game of life, how long you stay on the bench often depends
on how you pray in the trials.
Israel prayed and God called Moses. (Exodus 2:23; 3:9-10) Israel
prayed and God called Othniel. (Judges 3:9) Israel prayed and
God called Gideon. Israel prayed and God called Barak and Jephthah
and Samuel and Saul and . . . (1 Samuel 8:22; 12:10-11) You get
the picture. (See also Judges 3:15; 4:3 ff; 6:7-8,11,14; 10:10-16;
11:1 ff; Nehemiah 9:27)
Individual prayers are also spectacularly potent. Moses prayed
and God ordained seventy elders. (Numbers 11:10-25) Jesus prayed
all night and twelve disciples were chosen. (Luke 6:12-13)
As thunder follows lightning, ministry followed the descent of
the Spirit upon Jesus. His disciples experience was similar.
On both occasions, prayer predominated, as it did when Paul and
Barnabas received their missionary call. (Luke 3:21-22; Acts 1:14;
2:1 ff; Acts 13:2-3) And I sense the air was heavy with prayer
when elders imparted to Timothy his ministerial gift. (1 Timothy
4:13-14, compared with Acts 13:3; 28:8)
Pray the Lord of the harvest, instructed Jesus, that he will
thrust laborers into his harvest. (Matthew 9:38) Prayer and
the emergence of ministries march arm in arm. Heaven is a bit
old-fashioned. The buy now, pray later philosophy has never
caught on up there.
I was threatened with a change that would have robbed me of so
much time that continuing this book seemed impossible. While writing,
I can convince myself that this time will be different; this time
God will choose to use me. The possibility of having even that
straw snatched from me swamped me with near-panic. I was agitated,
worried, almost angry. The anguish of life in deep freeze is indelibly
chiseled into the cortex of my mind. Who could forget month after
month of coveting death? I dreaded even the briefest return to
that dank hole.
I was ashamed of my feelings. They hardly seemed Christian. Why
not add a dash of condemnation to the devils brew bubbling through
my brain?
Looking back, Im grateful for my unchristian emotions. They
drove me to fervent prayer. Pain is infinitely preferable to prayerlessly
drifting from the will of God.
To follow in the footsteps of the sweet psalmist of Israel (2
Samuel 23:1 b) we would need more than musical genius. If we added
Davids extensive theological understanding and spiritual insight,
we would still be hopelessly deficient.
We would have to match his patient, forgiving spirit, (E.g.. 2 Samuel
16:6 ff) his humility, (E.g.. Psalm 51:1-5) faith, (E.g. 2 Samuel
12:15-23) intense yearning for God, (Psalm 143:6) his desire for
personal holiness (Psalm 139:23-24) and eagerness to obey the
Lord. (1 Samuel 13:14)
Even then, there would be a hollowness about our lyrics unless
we shared Davids privations and exposure to danger. His sufferings
lifted his songs from contemporary to timeless.
According to Paul, the ability to serve hurting humanity comes
not from a textbook but from hardship. (2 Corinthians 1:3-6) Not
even the Son of God could begin his high priestly duties until
he had undergone temptations and sufferings. (Matthew 4:1-2; Hebrew
5:8-10) The principle was established long before Jesus birth:
Levitical priests, though born for the ministry and surrounded
by it all their lives, had to wait for their thirtieth birthday
before entering the priesthood. (Numbers 4:3) And the principle
is still in force: Scripture stipulates that church officers must
not be new converts. (1 Timothy 3:6 the term bishop in the
King James Version is misleading.)
Perhaps, like me, you have envied people who because of a dramatic
conversion or worldly fame are quickly thrust into the Christian
spotlight. Giving a ministry to a new Christian, however, is like
handing your car keys to an eight-year-old.
Nicky Cruz tells of a man born to a drug-selling family. His conversion
and subsequent business success brought him to celebrity status
in Christian circles. As speaking invitations mounted he felt
pressured to sacrifice truth in his quest to satisfy his thrill-seeking
audience. This apparently contributed to him seeking the cruel
solace of crack. He became tragically addicted.
I thank God that I was struck down in a quiet, little, obscure
place to begin my ministry; for that is what spoils half of you
young fellows, Alexander Maclaren told ministerial students.
You get pitchforked into prominent positions at once, and then
fritter yourselves away in all manner of engagements that you
call duties . . . instead of stopping at home and reading your Bibles,
and getting near to God. Added the man revered as one of the
greatest preachers ever, I thank God for the years of early struggle
and obscurity.
King Rehoboam should have heeded his elders men older and wiser.
Instead, he foolishly took the advice of friends his own age.
(2 Chronicles 10:1-16) In the words of Scripture, he was young
and inexperienced. (2 Chronicles 13:7 several translations)
After all, he was only forty-one years old! (2 Chronicles 12:13;
1 Kings 14:21)
We readily admit the folly of youth after carefully defining
youth as an age we have passed.
In a world of prickly people, Gerald (Names changed to protect
the guilty.) stood head and thorns above the rest. The venom he
spat would inflame a corpse. A church worker struck up a conversation
with him. Within five minutes, he later confessed, he felt like
smashing Geralds head in.
And Don had to work with this piranha-mouth. For five arduous
years Don worked with him. Time and again that canon of bile blasted
Dons self-control. But Don was a Christian. He resolved not to
pray that his tormentor change, but that he would learn love and
mastery over self. For years the inner battle flared. Finally,
Don won through. Soon after, he was called into full-time service.
Now an ordained pastor shepherding several hundred people, Don
looks back just two or three years to the time of his call and
sees a direct link between his character development and the call
to his present ministry.
Don is in his fifties.
A magazine put it well when it spoke of a certain Christian artist
becoming . . . an overnight sensation after a ten year
apprenticeship . . . Godly character and mature, effective service
come neither quickly, nor cheaply. But the Lord is worth the costliest
sacrifices. Moreover, he has already deposited at Golgotha the
highest possible price to ensure you will make it.
A weed may peak in a few months. A mighty tree certainly wont.
Things of great worth are rarely produced quickly. (Compare Proverbs
20:21 and 13:11; 21:5 especially in the Revised Standard Version)
When I read that throughout his life George Muller never stopped
learning and was always willing to change I knew I had found
a vital root to his fruitfulness. While laboring in close association
with Henry Craik, Muller discovered that Henrys sermons were
saving more souls than his own. Id have assumed my mix of gifts
was different and resigned myself to smaller yields. Muller was
smarter. Careful observation revealed that Henry was more spiritually-minded,
more fervent in prayer for soul-winning power and had a more direct
approach. George prayerfully and humbly appropriated these elements
into his own life and became an equally effective evangelist.
John Pollock writes of D. L. Moodys amazing capacity for growth
right until the end.
When eighteen-year-old Moody was interviewed for church membership
he was asked what has Christ done for us all for you which
entitles him to our love?
I dont know, confessed Moody, I think Christ has done a good
deal for us. But I dont think of anything particular as I know
of.
Two deacons were assigned to instruct him. Nearly a full year
passed before he was finally accepted into membership and even
then, commented his kindly Sunday School teacher, little more
light appeared.
After about another year his ungrammatical attempts at prayer
made people so uncomfortable that he was asked to keep silent
in future.
Eventually he decided that although he could not possibly teach
children, he could at least bribe them with sweets and kindness
to lure them to Sunday School. Once, to his horror, he found himself
with a small group of children and no speaker. He was forced to
stumble through a Bible story. He gradually discovered he could
tell a story to children, provided no minister was within earshot.
Addressing adults was unthinkable.
At age twenty-eight he would invite seminary students to preach
at a church. One day a student failed to arrive and he felt obligated
to act as an inadequate substitute. Slowly, year after year, decade
after decade, he developed into an outstanding evangelist.
He once invited theologian Henry Weston to address his conference.
Moody could draw far bigger audiences, and, through Christ, save
thousands more souls than this man. In fact, it is conservatively
estimated that in an era before microphones, not to mention radio
or television or jets, 100 million people seized the opportunity
to hear Moody. Of the eight encyclopedias, biographical and Christian
dictionaries I consulted, all devoted space to Moody; Weston did
not rate a mention. So vast was Moodys influence that Westons
own students challenged his views on the basis of what they had
heard from Moody. Yet when Weston rose to speak, Moody carried
his chair off the platform, placed it literally at Westons feet
and sat there soaking in every word. Suddenly he shouted, There
goes one of my sermons! Startled, Weston asked for an explanation.
Moody replied that he would now have to dump one of his favorite
sermons because Weston had just proved to him that it was based
on a misconception. Weston recommenced his address only to be
interrupted a little later by, There goes another . . .
Small wonder that like a towering tree, Moody kept growing and
growing, eventually making those who had originally outstripped
him look like stunted bushes. He developed gifts so vast that
it is said he could have run for President of the United States.
To turn a vibrant, growing Christian into a tragedy, convince
him he has already learned all that he needs to know. Its not
where you start that matters; its where you end.
Thirty seconds before the parade Private Goodfellow (his real
name) glanced in horror at his boots. He quickly rubbed his boots
on the back of his trousers and prayed it would suffice.
The inspecting officer seemed to be flaying everyone that day.
And he was edging closer and closer to Goodfellow. Finally, they
were nose to nose. Cold, experienced eyes scanned him from head
to foot. Private Goodfellow, fall out! he barked.
Take a good look, men, he bellowed, this is what you should
all look like! When it seemed they had stared at Goodfellows
front long enough, he ordered Goodfellow to about-turn so they
could admire his back. He proudly turned, displaying the back
of skillfully pressed trouser legs plastered with black blotches
of shoe polish.
Are you as prepared as you think?
A number of books hit the Christian market about losing weight.
Im told that after publication some of the authors ballooned
to a size that suggests they know less about their subject than
they thought. Embarrassing, but not surprising. Most of us imagine
we have arrived long before we reach our destination.
You may have appropriated more spiritual knowledge and power than
anyone on this planet had so many heavenly visitations that
your house is knee-deep in angel feathers yet in the vastness
of God there is still more. From the day of his conversion, Charles
Finney had overwhelming experiences with God and was mightily
used. A full quarter of a century later, after participating in
most of the revivals for which he is now famous, he entered a
new level of Gods holiness.
Though your present endowment be enormous, of greater value is
a yearning for more. I would rather have a man on my platform,
not filled with the Holy Ghost, said old-time Pentecostal, Smith
Wigglesworth, but hungry for God, than a man who has received
the Holy Ghost but has become satisfied with his experience.
Only the Lord knows if in the realm beyond your present experience
is something you critically need for your divine assignment. For
Hudson Taylor a momentous spiritual discovery came after fifteen
years of missionary endeavor. In the words of one writer, he
was transformed.
This issue is not the theological minefield it is often made out
to be. Though many of us believe Christians receive every spiritual
gift at conversion, the practical outworking is that regardless
of when or how we think we were endowed, we need heavy duty prayer,
faith and revelation for the rest of our lives to discover and
live in the power of just a fraction of our enormous inheritance.
As his closest friends, the disciples shared a unique intimacy
with the Son of God. Besides having front pew whenever he preached,
Christ confided in them, sharing spiritual secrets hidden from
the crowds. For three intensive years they devoured his precious
words.
Not only did they witness his power, they were often active participants.
Peter walked on water and hooked the money-hungry fish. They cast
out demons. They hauled in the net miraculously teeming with fish.
They amassed much practical experience while ministering in twos.
(E.g., Matthew 10:1 ff) Finally, they spoke with, and even handled,
their Lord newly risen from the grave.
Yet still they were sidelined. They needed a further experience
the Spirits empowering before they were ready for effective
service. (Luke 24:48-49)
It was hardly a contest: two elderly ladies on their knees, versus
a confident evangelist in the prime of manhood. They wanted Dwight
Moody to have the Spirits power. He thought he already had it.
But for him to resist was to pit his power of positive thinking
against their prayers to the invincible Lord of every universe.
A worn-out pop-gun versus a nuclear arsenal might have been less
one-sided.
The One who hears the prayers of the frail gave power to the strong.
The impact shook the planet. Moody preached the same sermons but
suddenly hundreds were being converted. He declared he wouldnt
return to his earlier days if offered the entire world.
Lest we confuse heavens endowment with human ability, consider
A. B. Earle. With 150,000 people professing conversion in his
meetings, Earle was one of the most powerful evangelists earth
has seen, and his power defied natural explanation. A writer for
a leading British religious paper analyzed Earles facial expression,
emotions, voice, rhetoric and natural wisdom, and there was nothing
to account for his impact. Every facet of his delivery ranged
from poor to very ordinary and the content of his message was
equally unremarkable. The writer said, When he preached on the
value of a human soul, I do not remember a single thought or illustration
that was new to me; and yet I came away overwhelmed in this realization
of the infinite preciousness of each child of Adam, and found
myself as I awoke the next morning, weeping in sorrow and anxiety
for lost sinners. Stirred to the core, that very day the journalist
led two people to the Lord in private conversations.
V. Raymond Edman, fourth president of Wheaton College, devoted
an entire book to his thesis that truly effective Christians are
those who have been reduced to discouragement, dissatisfaction
and defeat until finally entering a new spiritual dimension that
transformed their ministry. To prove his point Edman focused on
the spiritual crises of twenty famous Christians, including Andrew
Murray, John Hyde, Eugenia Price, Oswald Chambers, Charles Trumbull,
Handley C. G. Moule, Walter Wilson and Major Ian Thomas. Yet even
his twenty, he said, was but a tiny selection from a vast multitude.
After thirteen crammed years as an ordained minister Francis
Schaeffer became so aware of spiritual deficiencies within him
that he devoted a long winter to seeking God and re-examining
his entire spiritual life. Schaeffer maintained that what he gained
spiritually from this crisis played a critical role in the fruitfulness
of his later years.
It is undeniable that vast numbers of people have exploded into
ministry because of a full, no-tongues-barred, pentecostal experience.
Yet there are also innumerable tongue-speakers who seem less effective
than they could be, and certainly less effective than thousands
of outstanding non-pentecostals.
Malcolm Smith a tongue-speaker from his early teens and a pastor
thoroughly conversant with Scripture could have continued to
impress his loyal congregation, yet he resigned, overwhelmed by
the consciousness that the power in his preaching fell far short
of that of the first apostles. Finally, after much prayer and
anguish, a truth he had paid lip service to for years broke through
his darkness. God is All. Malcolms only contribution was
yieldingness. It suddenly dawned he had been trying to serve God
in his own strength. An outstanding ministry was born that day.
I cannot nominate which truth you must surrender to. The critical
factor in your life might be an experience frighteningly foreign
to you, or a truth so familiar that you imagine you are living
it. We can only maximize our fruitfulness by appropriating every
spiritual truth.
Chapter 9: Why Lord?
Waiting For Your Ministry
The Quest For Fulfillment
The torment of waiting is often intensified by the delay seeming
pointless. I aim to clip the barbs from that agonizing Why?
that twists inside us.
Prayer drought
Character development
The growth factor
A new dimension
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