Essential Introduction

This is an account of someone who would commonly be said to be demon possessed, though I prefer the term demonized. This person’s low levels of faith and spiritual understanding made maintaining freedom from the demon a prolonged battle, with the result that the account has much to teach us about how to win over demons.

A sixteen-year-old, whom we will call Harold, had been sexually molested. I don’t believe that demons are always transferred during sexual abuse, but in this case it happened. The molester – known to Harold as “the father” – eventually left but to Harold it seemed that the molester was still inside him, forcing Harold to obey him and especially to sexually molest others.

Except for a very few private e-mails mentioned below, all my dealings with Harold have been through a highly confidential Internet Chat Group I established. All members are adults who, except for myself and a couple of helpers, are seeking healing from severe child sexual abuse. Every member is able to read and comment on each message, though some members are much more active than others.

What follows is a much less offensive and shorter account, but with Harold’s permission, I have published elsewhere a full record of Harold’s messages and relevant replies from myself and the rest of the group. That record is extremely long and complex and I don’t want most people to even attempt to read it since it quotes verbatim (except with foul language replaced as in this webpage) and at length a foul-mouthed pedophile who mentions his disgusting lusts. It turned my stomach and would highly offend most people but some of us are called of God to expose ourselves to such things in order to learn how to rescue people like Harold. That webpage exists to provide highly practical training for people who may find themselves having to help such a person.

The following record commences nine days after Harold first made contact with me. During those nine days he responded to the unconditional love shown to him and had begun to clean up his language. In addition to removing early exchanges, I have removed other complexities and abridged the account to focus exclusively on spiritual warfare. Besides replacing foul language with *#!%@, I have made minor grammatical corrections and rare minor alterations to improve intelligibility.

It is not hard to imagine demons moving a person’s body in rudimental ways, and the Bible confirms that this happens, but Scripture goes way beyond that. It repeatedly cites instances of demons using someone’s tongue, mouth and vocal chords not merely to grunt or scream but to speak intelligently through people and even hold conversations with other people (biblical examples). To access and use someone’s intellect and fine motor skills so completely as to hold spoken conversations in that person’s language with a third party requires no less ability than typing on a computer. And this is what happened in the Internet Chat Group. (Incidentally, for centuries certain occult practices have involved “automatic writing,” whereby demons use a person’s hand to write messages.)

There is some color coding in this webpage and the colors chosen are used in the next few paragraphs in the description of the participants. For further clarity, at the top of each message, the author’s name appears.

Harold’s e-mails are in this color.

Other group members who wrote to Harold are in this color. They are:

Myself, Grantley. I own this website and have written many hundreds of major Christian-based webpages that appear on this website, all of which are available without charge.

Christine used to be oppressed by demons and God taught her spiritual warfare

Megan had a harsh mother. When she was young her father gave her the only tender kindness she knew but that attention was associated with sexual abuse. I think it was because her mother discovered his abuse that her father left them while Megan was still young. As a consequence, before the Lord used me to help her, Megan had parts of her who hated sexual abuse but some who craved it. She also discovered that demons were involved.

Ian is a pastor. With the group’s permission – anyone could have vetoed it – he recently joined the group to learn more about how to minister to people with serious issues.

Helen is in the group solely to offer counseling support. She has kindly and effectively acted as my ministry partner for many years.

The demon’s words appear in bold black.

This gray is used when citing part of the e-mail that is being replied to.

The links cited in the text below are important but the webpage is already long, so if you prefer to read the links later, they are listed for your convenience at the end of the webpage. If you visit them while reading the body of the webpage, you can return to this webpage by clicking the back arrow near the top of your web browser.

[From Harold]

Today I thought I would venture out, be independent and give this Jesus thing a try. But as it got closer to time, I got more and more scared. I was terrified to try. Just so you know, I never get scared. I have only been scared one other time. That was the first time the father raped me. I still remember it. It was the most violent night of my life. It hurt so bad. The violence that night was beyond words. Besides the pain, I was out of my head scared but I never had time to defend myself because he came in out of no where!! I still have never seen such horror but since then I don’t get scared.

But today I was really scared. This was different because I had time to be scared. The closer it got to time, the more scared I got. Honestly, I was more scared of what pain would follow the fear. I stayed for about five minutes which was as long as I could stand because my head felt like it was going to literally explode. Not to mention the fact that my heart ached with an unexplainable pain and stomach hurt like some *#!%@ kicked me. *#!%@ me ,Grantley, you never told me love hurts!!

I like talking to you. I like talking to God too. Today I was so scared that I talked to God. I had no idea what I was doing but I figured what the hell could it hurt because seriously I don’t think it is possible to get any more scared so I took a risk and asked God please do not let them hurt me today. Anyway, I like talking to you because I have never met someone not afraid of me, and I have never had such long conversations before.

And it doesn’t help that the father gets violently crazy, scary, mad about Jesus. He says his spirit will *#!%@ us up. He hates Jesus. This is no joke. He is serious too!!!

Well I have to listen to the father because, aside from the fact that he is in my *#!%@ head, I have known him my whole life. But I have only known you for about, I dunno 6 minutes. So who do you think has had more influence on my life? Hint, not you!! Well what I am trying to say here is you need to *#!%@ and find another friend. In other words I can’t change me, so *#!%@!!

[From Grantley]

Today I thought I would venture out, be independent

Well done!

and give this Jesus thing a try.

Excellent!

but as it got closer to time, I got more and more scared.

Something that is so true that I find myself frequently telling people is that healing takes a lot of courage.

Jesus is indeed safe and because he is safe he is very kind and patient. He won’t force himself upon you and will even agree to any restrictions you place upon him as to how close you will let him come.

I was terrified to try. Just so you know, I never get scared.

So there is something very peculiar about this fear, right? My guess is that what is peculiar about it is that fear does not come from you at all but from the thing inside you – which I believe is an evil spirit. It is scared of Jesus because it wants to keep you enslaved.

I have only been scared one other time. That was the first time the father raped me. I still remember it. It was the most violent night of my life.

My heart breaks for you. What happened breaks God’s heart and his laws and is a criminal offense. Thank you for sharing the details of what you suffered. You don’t deserve to have to suffer in silence. The man who did this deserves very many years in jail for hurting you the way he did.

You never told me love hurts!!

It doesn’t. What you were experiencing was pain put on you by this thing that does not belong inside you. It wants to keep you enslaved and it knows that Jesus is able to set you free.

It is very much worth the cost. What makes that hard to believe is that you have not yet experienced the wonderful things you get after paying the price. You will have the comfort and strength of Jesus. The pain and the fear will go.

And it doesn’t help that the father gets violently crazy, scary, mad about Jesus.

That should tell you some very significant things. The man who hurt you so much is violently opposed to Jesus. To be free from him and from what he put inside you, you need someone very different to the father.

Well I have to listen to the father

When you let Jesus help you, you will be free to live your own life and make your own decisions.

I have known him my whole life. But I have only known you for about, I dunno 6 minutes.

True, but he hurt you and lied to you and wants to keep you enslaved.

So who do you think has had more influence on my life?

Yes, but you can break free and start a new and better life.

I believe in you. I understand your concerns. There is no pressure from me. I still long to be your friend.

Grantley

[From Harold]

I am not good Grantley. I think the sick *#!%@ don’t want me to talk to you because it hurts my stomach to talk to you. *#!%@ me, huh!!

I cannot change, and I wish you could understand. I almost want things to go back to the way they were before I knew you . . . I can’t talk any more. I have to go now

[From Grantley]

I’m so sorry, my friend. You can break free, however, even though you don’t realize it.

The thing that is trying to possess you is stronger than you but he is weak compared with Jesus. And Jesus wants to be your friend and with Jesus as your friend you can be free.

[From Harold]

I HATE MY LIFE!! I want to kill the *#!%@ father. He *#!%@ up my life. I really want to kill the *#!%@ *#!%@.

You will probably laugh but I don’t want to be like the father. I hope you believe me. It is true, I promise.

If Jesus is so great why was the father the only one who taught me about growing up, Grantley? Jesus won’t even talk to me. Maybe he doesn’t like bad people.

I was too scared to go and meet Jesus again. Church made me crazy scared. You have no idea. I will think about going again but I am not brave. I wasn’t made to be brave!

Gotta go

[From Grantley] I know so many who have been like you that have now found joy and freedom and I know that you can find it, too.

You wrote:

I HATE MY LIFE!! I want to kill the *#!%@ father. He *#!%@ up my life.

Yes, he did. The way to get back at him is to become someone very unlike him and not be dominated by what he did to you. This is the empowering and freedom that Jesus offers you.

You will probably laugh but I don’t want to be like the father.

No, I’m not laughing, dear friend. It makes me proud of you.

I hope you believe me. It is true, I promise.

I believe you completely. I have never thought you have ever lied to me.

If Jesus is so great why was the father the only one who taught me about growing up, Grantley.

Sadly you did not get a chance to get to know Jesus but he longs for you to let him be your friend. He is not an abuser, so he won’t force his friendship on you but he is patiently waiting for you. You mean so much to him.

Jesus won’t even talk to me.

Give him a chance. You’ll be surprised!

Maybe he doesn’t like bad people.

He loves bad people so much that he took all their badness and pain upon himself and let himself be punished horrifically for the sins they deserve so that the Holy Lord could treat them as being totally innocent.

I was too scared to go and meet Jesus again.

I’m so sorry you were scared but that fear was not from Jesus. He doesn’t want you to fear him.

I will think about going again

Excellent! You can tell all the things that make you scared to go away in Jesus’ name. You don’t have to let them enslave you. Please read a webpage based on the experience of Christine when she was young: Susan has a Secret.

Have a look at Imaginary Friends and links. It is the experience of a member of our group. There are obvious differences with what is happening with you but there might be enough similarities for it to help a little. Some abusers have an awareness of demons and knowingly place demons within their victims to better control them. It can also happen without the abuser’s awareness but simply because demons are controlling the abuser. Demons are all bluff. They have no power over Christians but they use feelings such as fear and much deceit. They can also make a person unable to think clearly so that their weak arguments and threats seem believable.

With warm thoughts,

Grantley

[From Harold]

You wrote: The way to get back at him is to become someone very unlike him and not be dominated by what he did to you. This is the empowering and freedom that Jesus offers you.

I am not stupid Grantley. That is not revenge!!

Are you trying to trick me!! The father warned me that you would turn out mean and evil.

I believe you completely. I have never thought you have ever lied to me.

Thank you for believing me. The father never believed me. He always told me I was thinking the same as him. He got mad if I thought differently. This hurts me so much it makes me want to cry. Boys can’t cry or they will turn into *#!%@ *#!%@. Please do not trick me about this. *#!%@ I don’t want to talk about it! I am not scared. Only Jesus makes me scared but I will get over it.

I am going to try to meet Jesus if I am not too scared. I hope he is more like you than the father. *#!%@ I will be brave. Do you think I can tell them Jesus said *#!%@ because “in Jesus’ name” sounds funny to me.

One last thing, Grantley, why do you want to be friends with me? You never tell me seriously your answer. Are you like Jesus? I don’t know why you talk to me and how you know so much stuff. And why are you nice? It hurts me to be nice. I don’t think I like it. I have to go now

Bye

Harold

[From Grantley]

You wrote:

I don’t know why you want to know me better.

Because I like you and you are highly important to God. You deserve to truly live, enjoying life to the full.

I am not stupid Grantley, that is not revenge!!

At first thought it might not seem like revenge but it really is. To act the exact opposite of the father is to ensure that he completely loses. He wanted you to become like him. To act hateful is to become like him. It is, in effect, saying that he was right to act the way that he did and that you think he is so right that you will copy him. As they say, imitation is the highest form of flattery i.e. to copy someone and act like them is the greatest compliment you can give someone.

The father warned me that you would turn out mean and evil. Why didn’t I grow up.

I don’t think anyone could be WORSE than the father. I am trustworthy but I’m not asking you to trust ME. I am just asking you to trust God and I am asking you to find the freedom you deserve. I live the opposite side of the world to you and have never visited your country and I have no idea of your address. I can’t hurt you. All I want is for you to be no longer tricked by the father’s lies.

The father never believed me.

This is one of very many reasons why what he said cannot be trusted.

He always told I was thinking the same as him.

That’s because he wanted you to think like him. That’s why acting like him – hateful, wanting to sexually exploit people etc, would be letting him win.

He got mad if I thought differently.

Your former abuser is no longer around to enforce his wishes on you. You are free to be yourself.

It makes me want to cry.

I’m not asking you to cry but it is safe to cry. It won’t make you weak. Some of the strongest men in the world cry. For example, here is a quote from my webpage Real Christians Grieve

Without ever intending to, vast numbers of caring, Bible-loving Christians have slipped from the Bible’s view of grief. They suppose they should be more lion-hearted than David the giant-killer, the man after God’s own heart who, upon finding Ziklag burned and his family taken captive, wept aloud until there was no strength left in him, before heroically seizing back from the enemy everything that had been stolen (1 Samuel 30:3-19). There are Christians who think they should be less human than Jesus, who often wept.

Have a quick look at my webpage Men Crying in the Bible to see the vast number of times the Bible mentions men crying.

I am going to try to meet Jesus if I am not too scared.

Well done! You are brave and Jesus will make you even braver.

I hope he is more like you than the father.

VERY much so.

Do you think I can tell them Jesus said *#!%@ because “in Jesus’ name” sounds funny to me.

Yes, that would work fine, although Jesus prefers not to use such language. Tell them Jesus said you must leave – or something like that. They won’t like it one bit. They’ll try to bluff you and act as if they won’t leave but when they know you are serious they will get increasingly afraid of you (even though they will hide their fear) and they will end up having to leave.

Are you like Jesus?

I’m a little like Jesus but he is far better than me. For example, he cares so much for you that he was tortured in your place and in mine. I’ve never done that for anyone. Jesus can be with you 24/7. I can’t. Jesus is perfect. He never makes mistakes and he knows everything about you. I’m not like that.

[From Harold]

I did it Grantley! I went to meet Jesus. Woo whooo! I know you would be proud!! Mostly, I didn’t understand what they were saying at church but they said God is love so now I just make sure I know what love means. I think it means a good thing. I have to go now because the father is nearby and I don’t want him to know about Jesus. Thanks for being my friend Grantley. I like you friends sometimes.

Bye

Harold

[From Grantley]

I went to meet Jesus. Woo whooo!

Wow!!!! Fantastic!! I’m over the moon

I know you would be proud!!

I am indeed!!! Well done!!!

Mostly. I didn’t understand what they were saying at church but they said God is love so now I just make sure I know what love means. I think it means a good thing.

Yes, love is a very good thing. Love means being kind and gentle and wanting to help people and make them happy. It means feeling sorry for people if they feel sad and being happy for them when they are happy. It means being unselfish and wanting the best for a person.

Your friend,

Grantley

[From Ian]

I hadn’t written earlier because I want to be your friend too, and sometimes the best thing a friend can do is to just sit back and just listen.

I know it’s very confusing for you right now. You’ve been lied to for so long by so many people, and now “the father” is telling you we’re just trying to trick you. I’m sorry your father never believed you, that was just wrong – it’s obvious to me you’re very honest. Nobody would write the things you have unless they were being honest!

Grantley is not trying to trick you, and neither am I. You’ve been lied to for so long, and it’s all you’ve heard, so how would you know what the truth is?

And more importantly, Jesus is there for you too. Yes, it can be a bit frightening at first, but really the fear is from “the father” who has lied to you all along, and is lying to you now. It is really him who is afraid of Jesus, because he knows Jesus is more powerful than him, and Jesus would make him leave. He also knows that Jesus wants what’s best for you, and that (thankfully) he is not at all what “the father” is like. “The father” also knows that once you start looking around, you’re going to find out for yourself that he’s been lying to you all along, and that we are not mean and evil, nor are we tricking you, we are being honest with you.

We want to be your friend because Jesus became our friend when in many ways we were like you. I actually hated Jesus for a while. You know that? I told Him to get lost, get out of my life, go away. And I did many things that hurt Him, and to hurt myself. He was my friend and cared about me anyway – in spite of what I did to Him. Now Grantley and I spend our lives pointing people to Jesus, because we all need a friend like Him, and He is God – the true Father, the perfect Father that we never had. One who tells us the truth and cares about us. Unfortunately, there are liars out there who claim to be God the Father, and are not.

You have already proven just how brave you are by even writing to us (thank you for that – I’m so glad you did!). I know it takes bravery to do the things you need to do, like find out what date it is, to meet Jesus, and to tell “the father” to get lost in the name of Jesus – but I already know you’ll be brave enough to do all that, because you’ve already shown us how brave you are.

Hope you write again soon!

Ian

[From Grantley]

Hi, Harold!

A brave person is someone who does not let fear stop him and you went to Jesus despite intense fear. That makes you very brave. I am so proud of you. Don’t worry about fear. Keep pushing through that fear and getting to know Jesus because Jesus is all-powerful. He will protect you.

The father is nearby and I don’t want him to know about Jesus.

I encourage you to run to Jesus, take his hand and tell “the father” that you belong to Jesus. You can then poke your tongue out to the father or do whatever you want because Jesus is your protector and “the father” can’t do anything to hurt you because of Jesus. “The father” is helpless when you have Jesus inside you.

I know someone by the name of Innocent. You deserve that name because that’s how God sees you when you let Jesus cleanse you.

Your friend,

Grantley

[From Harold]

We have a serious problem here, Grantley. There is a very destructive force hurting me. I am in real trouble. It does more than just talk. It clouds my focus so I cannot see straight to write. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been cutting myself.

[From Grantley]

This must be a demon. Clouding one’s thinking is typical of demons. Jesus is so much stronger than demons. They are not to be feared. In fact, Christine loves fighting demons and see them run off, terrified of her. The man who abused you had demons causing him to do the horrible things he did. It seems that either through his deliberate plan or through the demon’s initiative, one or more entered into you in an attempt to enslave you. But Jesus is the great Liberator.

I asked you to read Imaginary Friends because that is about one group member’s successful battle with demons. Susan has a Secret is also helpful because it explains how even children have authority to send demons packing. Please also see Satan and Evil Spirits: You Can Beat Them You need to prayerfully read these webpages.

Even more important is to stay close to Jesus and to ask for his help and guidance. He is very keen to see this demon or demons evicted but he prefers to do it WITH you rather than do it all by himself.

Bless you!

[From Christine]

I am a spiritual warrior. Did you know that as children of God we have been given authority over demons? When you talked about the “cloudiness” you had we knew right away that it was demonic.

We are children of the King. All kings who are worth anything have enemies. These enemies are going to try to kill, steal and destroy the King and what belongs to him. One of the ways this happens is through attacking the children of the King. History shows us that many kings have had to build fortresses and hire armies to protect just one child!

In God we have a fortress. You need to get into it. The key is our words. Our words are the army that protects us. We have authority to bind any and all demons. The words that bind demons are our swords.

I carry my sword around with me all the time. Demons want to stop God. They will try to get at God through us, his kids.

You can take the name of Jesus and stop those demons dead in their tracks. You can bind them and you can loose the angels to protect yourself.

When I get attacked I begin to feel confused. I attack back and stop the demons.

You can do that, too.

By the authority invested in you through Jesus’ death and resurrection, you have the very Spirit of God in you. Use that authority and let the Spirit of God go to work for you.

Sorry this e-mail is hastily written, but I understand how urgent it is.

Your Friend,

Christine

[From Harold]

It hurts so much I can’t breathe or see straight. Jesus’ name. Jesus’ name.

Gotta go

Harold

[From Grantley]

You wrote:

It hurts so much I can’t breathe or see straight.

This is all bluff. Jesus will keep you safe. You belong to Jesus. He is in you and that makes you so much more powerful than any demon. Rebuke the demon and keep telling him he must go because you belong to Jesus.

[From Harold]

You wrote:

Even more important is to stay close to Jesus and to ask for his help and guidance. He is very keen to see this demon or demons evicted but he prefers to do it WITH you rather than do it all by himself.

I will try. It is too hard to talk now but I will try this hard to involve Jesus.

Thanks

Harold

[From Harold]

Thanks for your words, Christine. I don’t feel like a warrior blessing but maybe I should.

The father is pure evil as I am sure all demons are. He tells me over and over again that I am bad. He hurt me sexually. I can’t talk about it right now. It is too painful to talk about.

I try to rebuke him in Jesus’ name but he doesn’t listen which might be my fault because when the father is near, I feel overwhelmed by his powerful presence. I am disorientated, I can’t see straight, and I can’t focus enough to be able to, read, write, or think clearly.

His presence is so strong that I feel him inside my body. My heart beats really fast, I feel strangely tired, and so lost that I cannot figure out what is me and what is him. He takes my breath away that I feel like I can’t breathe.

Regardless, I still try to be a warrior and push him back in Jesus’ name but at best I can only temporarily push him back. He is a powerful force. Often I am so hurt and terrified that I don’t stay conscious. Or he uses his words to put me down.

The father doesn’t like me talking about him. Things will get worse if he knows about it so I must go.

We celebrated a small victory that we can push him back, if even only temporarily.

Thanks for the words of wisdom, Christine. Remembering that we are children of the King is a good reason to keep trying to get rid of the father and all of his evilness!

God Bless

Harold

[From Harold]

Hi Grantley

You said I am Brave. I am brave aren’t I! That wasn’t a question. I promise I know the answer. But I am not innocent. I am bad and the father agrees with me too. I have to go I am very tired. The father hurt me. I don’t want to talk about it except to say I cried so much and nothing happened when I cried. But I didn’t get to read about it on your web pages yet.

Bye Grantley friend

Harold

[From Grantley]

Hi, My Friend!

Thank you so much for writing.

You wrote:

I am brave aren’t I!

Indeed!

But I am not innocent.

All of us did bad things in the past but Jesus is so powerful that he can make anyone who believes in him to be totally innocent in the eyes of God who is the Judge of all humanity. Jesus achieved what seems impossible by taking all our guilt upon himself and paying the full, awful penalty for our wrongdoing so that we no longer have to be punished for our sins. Instead God now sees us as being as perfect and innocent as Jesus, who has never, ever done anything wrong. This is so amazing that it seems impossible and yet it is true. Here are some Bible verses about it:

1 Corinthians 6:9 Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders (10) nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.

That sounds as if there is no hope, but read on:

(11) And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Hebrews 8:12 For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.

{I quoted to Harold many more Scriptures}

All of the above applies to EVERYONE who trusts Jesus to do it. The Bible insists that there are no exceptions. For proof that it applies to everyone (and so applies to you) and for very many more Bible verses saying that Jesus makes you innocent, see It’s True! You’re Forgivable: A Sample of the Bible Proof.

I am bad and the father agrees with me too.

He wants to trick you into thinking you cannot be made innocent because he knows that if you realize that God – who is always right – declares you innocent, then you will be free from him.

The father hurt me.

You don’t have to accept this. Stay close to Jesus and let him protect you.

Your friend,

Grantley

[From Harold]

Wow, Grantley that is a lot of scripture but you can be sure I read them ALL!

[From Christine ]

Hi Harold,

Just so you know: this demon is like a very spoiled brat. He has had his way and has fed upon your fear and pain.

It is like telling a spoiled child to clean his room. That child might scream and throw a fit, but he knows he has to do it. The fit is to distract you and to throw you off guard.

The Bible says to put on the armor of God.

Ephesians 6:11-18 says:

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

Putting on the armor of God means embracing the wonderful good person you are in Christ.

Sometimes that is very hard for us. I used to tell myself over and over, “I’m bad! I’m bad! I’m bad!” To overcome this lie I have to sing to myself a song that God taught me. It says I am Daddy God’s good child.

2 Corinthians 5:21 says:

God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

That is our calling. We are taken out of darkness and given to Father God to abide in him and have the fullness of him in us.

The demon lies. He is trying to trick you. I know it is very confusing. I used to go through a haze and would hear tormenting voices. Then one day I got really angry. I was tired of being beat up by some lying jerk claiming to have power over me.

I stomped my foot, called that demon a liar and I kicked him out. That spoiled brat knew it was over. Tell him to go back to the pit in the name of Jesus and don’t come back! You are going on for God. The games are over.

You can do this a few times, if need be, and each victory will make you stronger. I am pleased for the victory you have had.

I am praying for you.

Your Friend,

Christine

[From Harold]

Hi, Christine,

You wrote:

It is like telling a spoiled child to clean his room. That child might scream and throw a fit, but he knows he has to do it. The fit is to distract you and to throw you off guard.

But it feels so much worse than a spoiled brat. He affects me in such a powerful way. Right now it is quiet. But experience tells me it will come back when I am tired or sick or stressed, I am sure

Putting on the armor of God means embracing the wonderful good person you are in Christ.

I am one of the Sunday school teachers in my church and we are teaching the kids about the full armor of God but I never thought of it like that.

Can I just say, it is such a blessing to know people such as yourself and others in this group because the people from the church teach about God and they are like family to me, but they cannot even begin to understand how to apply scriptures like you.

God bless with Love,

Harold

[From Helen]

Dear Harold,

My heart goes out to you!

Father God,

I join my heart and my prayers with the rest of our group as we lift Harold up to you!

Father God, in the Name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ we come against the vicious attacks by this person (being). Lord, thank you for the fight that Harold is putting up.

But Lord, we want more than a temporary setback of this evil person. We long to see Harold totally delivered from him!

And so I pray Psalm 91 for Harold!

Harold, who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. Harold, will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely you will save Harold, from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. You will cover Harold with your feathers, and under your wings they will find refuge; your faithfulness will be their shield and rampart.

Harold will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. . . .

Because Harold makes the Most High his dwelling – even the LORD, who is Harold’s refuge – then no harm will befall him, no disaster will come near his tent. For you will command your angels concerning Harold to guard him in all his ways; they will lift Harold up in their hands, so that he will not strike his feet against a stone.

“Because Harold loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen

Bless you!

Helen

[From Harold]

Some days I am less sad about all of the hurt we have experienced because without it, my relationship with God would be just like everyone else. I don’t mean that God loves me any more than the next person. I just mean because we have been through so much hurt, we depend on God more than the average person. He honors that and touches our lives deeper than the average person who doesn’t have so many hurts, I think.

Bye

Harold

[From “father”]

{Sent to me direct by private e-mail}

Subject: Harold belongs with me!!

You had no reason to turn the boy on me, Grant*#!%@ley!! You’re a *#!%@ *#!%@. But who’s laughing now. Harold belongs to me. You will never defeat me. So *#!%@ *#!%@ dude.

Harold belongs with me and I will come back for the boy. I don’t give *#!%@ what he told you, he and I are one and the same. He is not the good little boy you picture him to be so stay out *#!%@ of our business *#!%@. Get a life of your own.

Father

[From “father”]

{Sent via the group}

Grantley, I sent you a message. I need to know if you didn’t get it so I can send it to the right place.

Father

[From Grantley]

Subject: To Everyone, especially Harold

The demon who had been tricking Harold has sent me a private e-mail. He calls himself father but God is now Harold’s father and the demon is totally displaced.

Here’s my reply, which I’m sure you and all of heaven agree with:

Hi, loser!

Great to hear from you because this is my chance to inform you that Harold belongs to Jesus, and Jesus is so much more powerful than you that it is laughable. Unlike you, he is pure, innocent and holy because of Jesus. He has Jesus’ power and authority, as well as Jesus’ holiness. That means you don’t have a chance. You are a liar and nothing but bluff. You are totally defeated by what Jesus achieved on the cross by dying in Harold’s place. Jesus is your biggest nightmare and now Harold has him as his personal protector. You have no choice but to flee.

Like Harold, I have a life, thank you very much, and because of Jesus that life is eternal whereas you are destined to hell. If you want your torment to start right now, then just hang around.

Harold belongs to Jesus, loser! His father is now God and you have no place at all in his life.

[From Harold]

I don’t even know what to say!! I hope you will accept my apology for the father writing to you. You do not deserve this.

I do not know how to get rid of the father. I can push him back but he hides. I spent most of the day at church so he wasn’t around. The father does not stay for church. But he is tormenting me.

Last night I was stuck inside my body. I couldn’t get away to get help. And I couldn’t remember what I was supposed to say to get rid of the father.

He is a strong force and he is not just bluffing either. It is hard to get rid of him. I am out of ideas. I feel him near. My head hurts. I have to go.

Harold

[From Harold]

Grantley, I didn’t want to talk about the father. He has been mean and hurtful. But he taught me something that I wanted to tell you about it.

The father came last night. Have you ever felt your body but you can’t move it? I felt like that. I couldn’t move and my voice wouldn’t make noise.

But that is not what I wanted to tell you about. I want to tell you, I finally know what you meant by it is revenge to not be like the father. I get it now. I will tell you more later.

Bye,

Harold

[From Harold]

We are finally free. Last night the father wanted me to sex the kids. My whole heart said that is wrong. So I tried to make the father go away in Jesus’ name. I made him go away. I had to work a long time to get rid of the father. His screams are very scary.

Grantley, I always wanted the father out of my head. Now he is gone and I miss the father a little bit. What is wrong with me? Am I turning into him? Maybe “miss him” isn’t the right words. The father is the only father I have known. He always taught me things. I don’t know Jesus very well. I don’t know how to be me. I might be turning into him?

Grantley, can I ask you another question? When the father wanted me to sex the kids, it felt wrong in my heart. Will sexing people always feel wrong in my heart? I’ve heard that sex is for people that love each other. Well I do admit it but I am a little bit confused.

Harold

[From Grantley]

Hi, Harold!

Congratulations! I am so proud of you!

You wrote:

We are finally free.

Fantastic! I celebrate with you the victory you have had through Jesus.

my whole heart said that is wrong.

Yes. That is because through Jesus your heart is pure, like Jesus’ heart. Deep down you want to do what is kind and what is right.

So I tried to make the father go away in Jesus’ name.

Superb!

and I made him go away.

Excellent!

I had to work a long time to get rid of the father.

Yes, this is what I expected. It is typical of demons. They know they have to leave but they pretend to be big and strong even though they are actually terrified of you because they know that because of Jesus you are much stronger than them. As I said they try to bluff us and they try to give the false impression that they will never leave even though inside they know they have to leave.

His screams are very scary.

They try to bluff us but in reality he was the one who was scared.

Now he is gone and I miss the father a little bit.

This is normal. It is like a drug addict wanting to be free from drugs and yet even when he is delivered from them there are still times when he craves them and during those times it is very important that he stay strong and not give in to the craving or else he’ll be in a mess again. As you keep resisting the urge to let the demon return, however, the desire will get weaker. This demon – he is in no sense your father, so I don’t like calling him by that name – has totally lost, but no demon likes losing a victim like you were so he will wait until you are tired or you let your guard down a bit and then he will come back and try to bluff his way back into your life. He’ll try to scare you or seduce you. I am warning you ahead of time so that you will not be surprised when it happens. It is normal because that’s how demons act. But you are stronger than him and as you refuse to listen to his lies and you command him to leave in Jesus’ name, he will be forced to leave.

the father is the only father I have known.

It is important that you make Jesus your father. Jesus, not this demon, is your real father. Jesus is good and safe and will only tell you the truth. He will love you and approve of you and teach you. Even though you have not been aware of Jesus he has known you all your life. He fully understands you. You are no stranger to him! He longs not just to be the best father you could ever have but your best friend. You mean everything to him.

I don’t know how to be me.

It will be a little strange at first but this is a new and wonderful time for you. Jesus will give you the courage to be yourself and he will give you all the support you need.

Will sexing people always feel wrong in my heart?

This demon might try to trick you so that some time it might not feel wrong. What matters is not what it feels like but what God says. He says that sex is good when it is between a man and woman who are married to each other and devoted to each other for life and are gentle and patient with each other. He says that sex in other circumstances is sick.

Feel free to ask me any questions you wish, my friend.

Grantley

[Harold]

Thank you, Group, for all of your prayers. They finally paid off. The father is finally gone. HAPPY DANCE, if even only for a minute!!

Harold

[From Grantley]

You can be free from that demon forever. He will try to bluff his way back in again but you don’t have to let him. You can keep him out forever. It is important that you become close friends with Jesus and to make him your father.

[From Harold]

Hi, Ian. Thanks for the prayers. I missed you. I haven’t got to talk to you for a long time. I hate to admit but I was hiding today, all day.

I know this is supposed to be a good time for me to finally be free. I am happy, too. But all of a sudden, I got my identity taken away from me. I didn’t know how much the father controlled me until he wasn’t there and I didn’t know what to do anymore because I am so used to him telling me. I don’t know how to handle freedom.

Grantley told me I just need time and to stay close to Jesus but I am a little bit scared. Okay, I lied. I am a lot scared. Because I don’t want to be like the father but I don’t know how else to be.

Take care, Ian and thanks for the prayers. I hope you don’t go away from me.

Harold

[From Ian]

Heyyyy Harold!

So good to hear from you!

Unfortunately, people suddenly released from the grip of a demon often find themselves feeling a little lost. Usually because, exactly as you said, they had noooo idea how much they were being controlled until after the demon was gone. It is wonderful that YOU, and not someone else, told him to leave. Good for you! I know that can be really scary. I’m proud of you.

And already you are very much different than the father. You are not cruel, you are caring and kind. You are not deceitful – you are honest.

It will take some getting used to. Basically, you’re going to learn to be . . . you! :) A big help will be doing exactly what you’re doing now – coming out and bravely sharing where you’re at. The most important part is clinging to Jesus, because he will carefully and gently show you what to do next. You’ve got a lifelong walk ahead of you. I’ll tell you right now, it’s an exciting walk. It’s challenging, it’s fulfilling. It will have hardships (I’ve certainly seen my fair share!) but Jesus will never let you go, and that’s what makes all the difference in the world.

So what I’d suggest is don’t just share with us, but with Jesus. Tell us what Jesus is saying to you.

It’s so good to hear from you – chat later, eh!

Still praying . . .

Ian

[From Harold]

Thanks for your help, Grantley. I was wrong about you and I am sorry. I hope you are smiling right now because I never told someone I was sorry before. It feels strange to me. But I mean it to feel good for you.

I will stay close with Jesus. He makes me feel safe. He is so amazing how he can make me feel safe and not even say one word.

But not today. I hate to tell people when I am scared. I don’t want to be scared. But today I had to hide all day. I don’t want to be like the father but I don’t know how not to be either.

It is hard for me to describe what is happening inside of me.

Well thanks for the help, Grantley. I still don’t understand how you know so much but maybe I don’t need to either.

Bye Grantley

[From Grantley]

Hi, My Friend!

You wrote:

Thanks for your help Grantley. I was wrong about you and I am sorry.

That’s so kind of you, dear friend. We all make mistakes and that demon was trying his hardest to trick you.

I hope you are smiling right now

I’m smiling because you are free and because you are my friend.

I never told someone I was sorry before.

I thought that might be the case. I’m proud of you!