Fear & Feelings
Need not Define who I am

A Testimony

Since first visiting your website I have learned a lot about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and have discovered some root fears and issues that have been a driving force behind my OCD for me.

I believe that victory over OCD has many facets, including a bio-chemical component and faulty beliefs and fears, all of which the devil (the deceiver) tries hard to exploit.

Last night and this morning I had thoughts of me turning away from Christianity. Lately, I have been very good at letting these thoughts just pass on through without worrying about them. But this time I wasn’t so successful. I let the thought and feeling pass but then the worry about those thoughts and feelings started to get to me. Then the more I worried about them, the more of them started to happen, such as, “I really believe this” and so on. I then became extremely anxious over this and the more I tried not to think such thoughts and have such feelings, the more they happened. I tried to make myself “feel like a believer” and have the right thoughts but this made everything worse. This cycle got out of control and eventually I really thought that I was not a believer.

As I lay there, I was able to identify the underlying fears and false beliefs that contributed to that episode. I have a fear that those thoughts and feelings, if allowed to occur, make it true about me. That is why I have in the past tried to stop them, which simply makes them worse.

Even if I allow the thoughts and feelings to happen, just thinking and feeling something does not make it true. It is what God’s Word says that is true, not my thoughts and feelings. I shouldn’t fear the thoughts and feelings, no matter how real they feel or if I feel as if I agree with them. These thoughts and feelings are not what my future has for me. God has a future for me. I am who the bible says I am, not what my own thoughts and feelings say I am. I can see how the devil can use our thoughts and emotions to trip us up. For me, he just has to put one thought or feeling in there and I run with it. I don’t have to fear these things. The Bible has many promises for me to cling to.

In God’s grace and security,
J.

The Support you Need
As a doctor prescribes daily medication, I prescribe daily reading of these webpages. Ensure that your reading includes Scrupulosity: Serious Help When Worried about Salvation, Blasphemous Thoughts or Persistent Guilt Feelings and all the pages it leads to, but there is much more listed Condemned? How to Cope When Riddled with Guilt and How Much does God Love Me? Receiving a Personal Revelation of God’s Love for You.

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Vital Help

I suggest you follow the above link but if you want a change of pace, the following is here for you.

Urgent Questions?

The Beginning The only way to not miss any of this feast of uplifting webpages about false guilt is to start at Feeling Condemned? There’s Hope! and follow each link. You won’t regret it!

Feeling Rejected by God An important part of this series of webpages

Unforgivable? The part of the series that deals with the unforgivable sin

Testimonies They thought they were unforgivable

Scriptures Some of the vast number of Scriptures proving that you can be forgiven

God Loves Me! Receive Your Personal Revelation of God’s Love A separate, very important series

Demons The beginning of a series of webpages

Dealing with Depression and Discouragement

God & Suffering Coping with fears that God might be harsh and unloving

Becoming a Winner Breaking addictions and besetting sins

Encouragement When You Feel Defeated

Index to Entire Site A treasure trove of stimulating, compassionate, often humorous, webpages for Christians by the same author on a vast number of topics. This website is enormous!