A week after our baby girl was born the doctors told us she had a rare chromosome disorder. We were very privileged to have loved, held and cherished our Annika for 5 months and 3 days.

After Annika went home to be with the Lord in December 2008, we were very sad.

Nobody wants to let go of pure unconditional love and I was addicted to that little “wise missy”.

There was sadness but also an intense feeling of being privileged and honored to have had the opportunity to partake in her life. Being around this special child of God made every minute a blessing.

In February I was pregnant again, and though we were happy we also missed our Annika very much.

After the first ultrasound we were relieved because all seemed well. We allowed ourselves to be full of joy again and making new plans.

Unfortunately, the second ultrasound, April 15, showed what they call “missed abortion”. The baby had stopped growing and they couldn’t find a heartbeat anymore.

I was devastated. How could this happen? Where was God?

I cried out to God and asked for prayer from friends. Their love and prayers put me in a love bubble and made it impossible for me to run from God. His love was all around me; I couldn’t deny it, even if I wanted to.

A couple of days after my baby was removed from me, I laid on my bed crying. All of a sudden I had a glimpse of heaven. I have shared it with others and it seemed that it had comforted people and it is my prayer it will comfort others too.

Suddenly I saw Annika and her little brother. (I couldn’t see any faces but I sensed it was them and the sibling was a boy.). I didn’t see what she was wearing but he was wearing a shining white baby suit and he was looking up to his sister. There she was stretching her hand toward him so he could lay out his tiny hand in hers. I could sense her being as proud as she could be to show off her little brother and to impress him with all she already knew about heaven. She took him to a playground and there were many other children. They all had fun and then Jesus came. (Again I couldn’t see details but he looked like a man and I sensed this great joy and love so I figure it was Jesus). There was joy all over the place. All the children gathered around Jesus. They settled down and he began to tell them a story. Needless to say they were all listening. It was very quiet but the air was filled with excitement and appreciation but also expectation.

Then the vision was gone but it left me with such great inner peace. I thought about that expectation. What else is there to expect when you are already in heaven? But dear friends let me assure you I know that I know that I know that our children know they have mommies and daddies here on earth and they are looking forward to be reunited with us as much as we do with them.

People say: “Sorry for your loss,” but the truth is that although we may be empty handed and broken hearted we know exactly where our children are and they are having a great time, unhindered by any physical limitations and waiting to be reunited with us too!

Sjoukje Visser-Grootenhuis (Netherlands)

Proud and honored mother of Annika, special tour guide in heaven

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